I'm sorry! Things got really crazy around here, then I lost my internet browser and had to wipe my hard drive and re-install everything. I "thank" the ex-stalker who changed all my software installation passwords without my knowledge.
Anyways, I've been so-so. I seriously need to decide what kind of eating rules to abide by, because I can go days (9 is my longest 0-calorie run, 4 days is pretty typical with the amount of physical activity I have to perform) without eating anything except water, and then I'll wake up one morning and find I ate ----- in my sleep. Sometimes it's just a yogurt, or some sliced apples, other times it's disastrous, fig newtons or an actual SANDWICH. uhhhnnnnggg. and I know my body looks different to me every day, but my thighs are just covered in cellulite today. I remember when they were so small and smooth. at least in comparison. I really don't know if I should set myself to a 0-calorie diet and just blockade my door during the night, so I can't get food, or if I should allow 200 calories a day to attempt to prevent the sleepwalking-eating... please suggest something? I need a very strict flow-chart of food and exercise to abide by, clearly my self-control is not as strong as it was 5 years ago.
I know this post is ridiculously lacking in content, but it's an all-consuming problem right now, and I have to go to work (which also sucks). Anyone willing to help me build an eating / exercise plan that will keep my body running while losing weight rapidly? (when I was able to essentially fast for four months - I had 80 calories every other day - I didn't have anything to do but sit in school and exercise, but now I have to work 12 hour days on my feet, hauling lumber and whatnot, and exercise, and try to participate socially just in order to feel kind of normal...)
I would be sosososososososo grateful for solid input.
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